Yeah, I feel kind of bad that I am letting my blog fall to the wayside. I was thinking maybe I am depressed or something. I feel like my mojo is gone and I don't wanna try very hard to do classes and all this stuff anymore. I have been going through some family stress and dealing with health issues where I am not getting alot of sleep so I am thinking that plus all the heat is just making me blah.
And I am just tired. I am still going through everything that was thrashed from back to back to back classes and sometimes I feel like I am on Clean House, wanting to throw my hands in the air and throw everything away!!! Where is Neicy Nash when I need her?!?! Oh! My front room is all topsy turvy with all of Matthew's room in there since we ripped the carpet out of his room today to put in laminate flooring. I can't seem to recover from one project before I start another and it just makes the mess expand exponentially. I can't keep up so then I get frustrated and want to give up. I know, baby steps, but alot of these projects are boring so then I stop in the middle and do something else and then nothing gets finished. Boring in that I have to go through things and make sure peices are not missing, I have to put stuff away, I have to paper clip kits. Yeah, sometimes that is boring when it gets in the way of creative time or playing with the kids.
Oh, and I didn't make the Cosmo DT. Not real news since I was pretty sure some big name people would be make it and I would not be among them. I go though this strange analysis in my head every time something like this happens. Maybe my stuff isn't good enough…but no, people tell me it is…but then again I tend to make stuff a little simpler because most of it is for a class and there is only so much I can do well in 3 hours…and I don't want to do artsy fartsy projects and pages with one photo that look contrived (like many of the winners of such DT calls seem to create)…but maybe that is how that person really scraps and it is a creative outlet so however they wanna express that is totally fine…plus the pages are darn cute…and if they don't like what I make then it wouldn't work anyways…besides when I am going to make MORE stuff than I already do now?…and shoot, I love the DTs I am on right now so why isn't that “enough”?
So I go through this rejection stuff too, in case anyone was wondering. I think everyone who tries for something and doesn't make it goes through something like this. I guess, for me, it is not so much rejection as just wondering what makes “their” entries more special than mine and how can I get mine there without changing myself or compromising my integrity by making stuff I don't like and won't use? Yeah Yeah Yeah. Same deal with getting published. I was told I must not be getting pubbed because I am not presenting myself right. The stubborn, rebelious part of me says, “well, if they don't like it or can't see the value in it, then pooh on them.” That attitude sure has gotten me far so far! LOL But then again I want to figure out and analyze and discover the magic formula that makes an editor/DT head pick “them” over “me.”
Now I sound like I have too much time on my hands to think about this seemingly insignificant stuff in the scheme of things in this short life we all have.
So I figure when this happens it's always good to remember why I scrap–cuz it is fun and for the memories, not be in some mag or get free goodies as part of a DT, though that would be some pretty sweet icing on the cake if it happened. But oh yeah, I already get some freebies to play with and get to teach for some pretty cool companies…I forgot about that! LOL I love to share on my blog and hope that I inspire someone, someday because the more we share and inspire, the more we can all create! And that is why I blog too–cuz I like the whole sharing aspect of papercrafting!
So the best way to get out of a “slump” like this is to do some pages, maybe try for some challenges. My plan tonight is to watch SYTYCD and then create something. Tomorrow a bunch of friends and I are trekking to Fabric Barn and to LA for some scrappy goodies–what better way to get inspiration than from NEW STUFF! YEAH!!
So until tomorrow (unless I can get my butt in gear with some pics posted tonight) Happy Scrapping!! And congrats to the Cosmo DT finalists–there are some pretty talented chickadees in the group ;) Thanks for listening. I feel better already ;)